"Trying To Keep It Together"
It’s only now becoming clear . . .
The split between me —
The Teacher
And me —
The Experiencer.
Illuminating and contextualizing
particular pieces
by playing recordings for students,
While held hostage by those very same pieces.
Only certain pieces, mind you.
They are not merely great works
nor merely highly influential ones,
for there are many.
No,
they are the ones that latch,
latch onto me,
through me,
inside of me.
While I feel
their birth,
their development,
their redemption
Coursing through me
with every spin of the CD player.
Each one an accumulated experience through our
movies
documentaries
culture wars
and commercials,
Pulsing through my subconsciousness
as I attempt to
reveal relevant musical and cultural relationships.
Feeling properly dressed
in front of each student,
yet naked
in front of each composer and artist,
Wondering if I can keep track of each track
in Linear Time
While my senses yearn to stay in the deep water
of Spiritual Time.
All while . . .
I’m just trying to keep it together.
June 2023
